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Post by jessie on May 13, 2010 21:40:14 GMT -6
Dancing With The Devil I don't care, he is a mjaor douche and terrible for her. It is only a matter of time I know before he breaks her heart and when he does I will be there to pick up the pieces. Megan is stubborn to a fault and she has been down that road for awhile now. I have no idea how to bring her back and it is difficult when we are not on speaking terms. You are a great sister to him... well you are almost a mom to him. I miss him though, of all your siblings he is my favorite.
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Post by ruby on May 13, 2010 23:36:13 GMT -6
well you have your opinion on my brother, and i
have mine. megan reminds me of someone i know
care to take a guess? i have no idea how to bring
you back to a month or two ago too, but i'm
trying. you should too. just because you aren't on
speaking terms doesn't mean you can't break it.
you should speak to her first. and thanks. i'm not
almost. he really thinks i'm his mom.... and he has
to be your favourite. he's seven. he's everyone's
favourite. you can't help but love him.
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Post by jessie on May 13, 2010 23:44:34 GMT -6
Dancing With The Devil Well he is your brother, ofcourse are opinons are going to be different. In the end Kiara, the only person who can bring me back is myself. You don't need to mention who she reminds you of, I know. I will speak to her eventually. Actually, I don't really like kids, you know that, it just happens I love that one.
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Post by ruby on May 13, 2010 23:49:40 GMT -6
even if he's not my brother, i still wouldn't think
he's that bad of a person. but that's just me. i
know. eventually.... eventually can be now or it
can be tomorrow or it can be ten years from now.
i know, i know. how can i not? we had that talk.
remember? i said i loved kids and that i wanted
three, and you freaked out on me. and then there
was that baby project thing for health class. though
that kid sure did love you.
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Post by jessie on May 13, 2010 23:56:38 GMT -6
Dancing With The Devil Or it could be never... who really knows anymore. Yeah, I did freak. I don't want kids for certain reasons and I don't want to be a father in general. But I do remember that project. The child was adorable and we were on terrible terms at the time, as usual.
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Post by ruby on May 13, 2010 23:59:39 GMT -6
trent... you should talk to her. i'm not going to
force you to, but i don't think you want to lose
a sister like her. she's amazing, trent. if you lose
her for, you'll lose her for good. But you're an
amazing father trent. i don't know if you know it,
but you're a better parent than me. and i babysit
a lot.
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Post by jessie on May 14, 2010 0:02:52 GMT -6
Dancing With The Devil I will talk to her, I said that i would, I just am not sure when. I love her to much not to but lately I have needed breathing room from everyone and that includes my family. And how would you know if I would make a good father? You saw me with one child, one that happened to be rather easy. They are not all like her. You practically raised your brothers so we can't compare who would be a better parent.
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Post by ruby on May 14, 2010 0:11:27 GMT -6
oh, alright. that's cool, i guess.... and i do know.
are you kidding me? that kid was a monster! she
has kicked me, punched me, thrown boiling hot
soup all over me and "accidentally" bit me. you
call that kid easy? if i didn't raise my brothers,
who would? my father? yeah right. i didn't have
a choice whether or not i wanted to feed my
brothers, do their laundry, help them with their
homework, clean the house, clean the dishes,
drive them to schoo, etc. everything that
happens to them, i feel responsible for. however
they turn out, i feel that i did something wrong.
blake? every time he makes a rude comment,
uses sarcasm, drink like no tomorrow, and be
hated by everyone, i feel like i made that happen,
like i did something wrong in the past that made
him like this. my younger brother? i don't even
know where the hell he is or if he's even okay.
sometimes i think he's only like this because i pay
too much attention to blake, christian, and my
own life. and christian? don't even get me started
on him. i'm not a better parent.
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Post by jessie on May 14, 2010 0:18:59 GMT -6
Dancing With The Devil I forgot... I was not around much, remember? You did that project almost by yourself. You had a choice. Nathan and Blake are the same age and older than you, they were perfectly capable of taking care of themselves, you just felt you needed to take on that mother role and why would they complain? Having someone feed them and do their laundry. They are not in prison, or strung out on drugs, or in some gang, so I would say for not having a mom and a dead beat father you have done pretty well Kiara. You can't blame yourself, you are not exactly the most liked person either. You two are actually pretty similar in some ways. You will make a great mother one day... I though, will never be a parent if I can help it.
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Post by ruby on May 14, 2010 0:30:42 GMT -6
yeah, well all the times that you were there, she
was a doll. kids love you and you're a great parent
and you don't even realize it. you do these amazing
things without realizing you're even doing it. no, i
really didn't. if i didn't take that role, they're rooms
would probably be infested with god knows what,
the refridgerator and cupboards would be empty,
the sink would be piled with dishes, and they'd wear
their clothes consecutively for seven days. sure,
maybe nathan can take care of himself. but blake's
my twin. i feel very responsible for him and his actions.
and then there's christian. if i didn't take that role, no
one would even realize he has narcolepsy and he'd get
into trouble all the time. they'd all forget about him.
me? do pretty well? you're funny. i'm terrible. i have
forgotten to pack christian his lunch more than ten times
i've left him at school for more than ten hours without
even realizing. i've never given nathan my time of the day
i've never even really pay attention to him. blake's out
there breaking all the girl's hearts and now that he's finally
fallen for a girl, he keeps fucking something up. so no, i
wouldn't say i did pretty well. yeah, and i know i'm not
the most liked person. i'm probably even the most hated
person, and it's also my fault. and i blame myself. i hate
what i am now. i hate who i was. i just hate me.
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Post by jessie on May 17, 2010 21:57:53 GMT -6
Dancing With The Devil I never said I wouldn't be a good parent, I just have my reasons for not wanting children of my own, a good reason. But to be honest Kiara, that sounds like the life of living with a typical guy. We are absolute pigs generally unless we do have someone picking up for us. You can't feel responsible for Blake's actions. He is his own person and a rather stubborn one. He could have ten people telling him to do one thing and he will still go ahead and do the other. Christian I can understand, he is younger and does need a reliable parent. That does not make you terrible Kiara. No parent is perfect. Those are mistakes that many parents have made one time or another. Nathan does not really pay attention to you either, that swings both ways. We all keep fucking something up, he is not the only one. You are not the most hated person. You are liked by Hannah and James, you have friends. I would say your brother is the most hated person probably. Not one single person likes that arrogant ass aside from my sister.
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Post by ruby on May 17, 2010 22:08:33 GMT -6
well alright, i'm guessing that reason has to be
related to the other one, so i won't question it
but i do feel responsible for blake. and we are
all stubborn. my whole stinking family. including
hannah and stuff. it does make me terrible. my
mother was a perfect parent. she never forgot,
she always made time for us, she was absolutely
perfect. i want to be just like her, but i'm not
even close. and i know that nathan doesn't pay
attention to me too, but i don't want to be the
sister that ignores her siblings. the one who
doesn't give two shits. i don't care if he doesn't
pay attention to me, but i need to pay attention to
i don't need anything to happen to them. hannah,
well hannah likes me all the time, but it's not the
same with james. he really hates me sometimes. i
don't think my brother is the most hated. i don't
hate him, christian doesn't, your sister doesn't, and
there are many more. i think hiroko would be the
one that's the most hated.
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Post by jessie on May 17, 2010 23:07:58 GMT -6
Dancing With The Devil It would be part of the reason... I don't have the best genetics for making children simply put. You were young Kiara, at no age to truly be a parent but you stepped up and did the best you could and they are a hell of a lot better fucking off than if you had not stepped up and taken on that mother figure. Imagine where they would be if you didn't. Kiara we are all different, we can try desperately to be just like someone else but we will always come up empty handed. You have done a fine job and your mom would be proud of you. If you care that much be the bigger person and pick up the phone. He loves you after all and he is your brother. Hate is a strong word Kiara. Maybe he get aggravated with you sometimes but he does not hate you. Siblings don't count though, I mean they are your blood after all. Hiroko is more respected than you think by some. You will be surprised how many fucking people will defend her stupid ass sometimes.
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Post by ruby on May 17, 2010 23:19:08 GMT -6
you don't know that. for all we know, if i never
stepped up, they could be better off. they would
not be nagged to visit their little brother, and do
it on their own. they wouldn't hear me complain
and do their own laundry and dishes. it's a very
big possiblity that they would be better off if i
didn't step up. and i did pick up the phone, i just
chickened out before the dial tone rang. fine, james
doesn't hate me, but i'm pretty sure he's annoyed
with me. i know a lot of people respect hiroko. and
i'm surprised you actually, sort of, defended her.
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Post by jessie on May 18, 2010 0:23:41 GMT -6
Dancing With The Devil So you are really going to argue that they would have turned out better with absolutely no parental guidance in their life at all? I had no fucking parental guidance and look at me... enough said there. No child with absolutely no parents in their life turns out better Kiara. It just does not happen. If they were not nagged they would never see him, those two need to be nagged. No no wants to hear their parents nag to do that shit, but that is what makes them a damn parent. You guys just don't really keep in contact, it's normal. Just pick up the phone, it's not like there is bad blood between you two. I have never defended her a day in my fucking life.
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